Women’s Retreat
I have a women’s retreat to go to this weekend. I’m teaching the craft class too, which I probably should not have signed up for, since this is my first retreat at this church, but I did it, and now I have to face the music.
The craft is pretty much ready to go. I need to get a little more organized, but it is close to being finished. I had started with two projects that people could choose from, but that isn’t going to happen now, b/c I was getting stressed about the second project. I dropped that project and I feel a WHOLE lot better about the whole thing.
My biggest concern about the whole weekend is that I don’t like change or a rigid schedule or people who tell me what to do . I don’t like retreats for those reasons. I’m a jerk. I don’t let God work in my life in because I’m so adverse to “following directions.” I’m not a huge fan of a bunch of women in close quarters unless I’m scrapbooking with them. It must be a inate rebellion against God, which is scary. Why oh why do I not let God work on me because I’m embarrassed or whatever. I hate feeling this way.
Its going to be fine, I just need to chill.
Just take a breath. I am sure you will do just fine.
wow, i can relate to you on this one …… big time. i used to HATE going to stuff like this or women’s bible studies and the whole thing of being in one spot. then about a year ago i was invited to a small women’s group that totally changed my life for the better. those women taught me to feel God’s love in a way i never had before and accepted me with such unconditional love. it was truly amazing. i pray that you will have an amazing time like that too! i love your writting……keep it up!!
thanks for the support! Usually once I get to know people I feel better. We’ve only been at this church for 6 months, and I definately know SOME people, but the women’s retreat has 75 women coming, and I know I won’t know a lot of them, and that makes me uncomfortable! I’m a totally different person once you get to know me than what I put out at first. It depends on the person and situation how soon I relax around them.
Its just me, but I don’t like being like that.
HA i hope noone who went to the retreat saw this in came in with preconceived notions about you lol.
i absolutely admire your transparency.
j.
Tell us how it went! I’m sure you did great.
There is something frightening yet INVIGORATING about doing something that petrifies us. It causes dependence on God, and then as a result fear is smacked in the face and faith is built. AMEN