heart pains
I lost my baby this week. She was born into enternity on Friday May 16th.
I’m happy that she never had to experience this life, this world of hurt and sorrow. But I miss her. I miss never being able to meet her and talk to her, and introduce her to the things on this earth that God has given us to remind us of heaven.
I never got to introduce her to brother and sister and Daddy, or her Grammy and Papa and uncles who would have loved her. That love is heaven on earth. I never got to take her to the park to swing on the swings, and show her a little bit of true freedom on earth. She never got to try Ritter’s custard or eat chocolate chip cookie dough. She never got to open presents or whisper secrets to her friends. She never got to praise God in the sanctuary with all of God’s people gathered together.
But God is holding her in his arms. He is giving her the taste of heaven that we can’t. She actually is getting to see heaven before any of us. I am mourning, but I do not mourn like one without hope! I know that my hope is in heaven, and my baby, Jewel is there waiting for me, being rocked by Jesus, because I can’t be there to rock her myself.
i love you.
Everything you’ve said is absolutely right. I’m not sure if you’ve gotten my mom’s email, but when I was a little girl, she lost a baby at 6 months (my sister Beth). However, what we saw as a horrible tragedy, God used for good. My mom came back to the Lord through all of that! I did go through a long time where I thought everything was my fault. I thought God was punishing me and my family for something I did. In my 6 or 7 year old mind, that’s the only way I could make sense of it. I never told my mom that… and God showed me the truth years later.
Even as a sister and not a mom, I’ve thought of Beth almost every day my whole life. I’ve thought of how old she would be, how she’d be dating or riding bikes or driving or learning to turn cartwheels. Then I remember that we’ll have eternity to spend together.
My hope is in the Lord. I know that I will have enternity to spend with my baby that I will never get here on earth, but that is such a hope-filled knowledge!
Praise God for filling the hope-less with HOPE!
much love and sincere prayers…
from a brother in australia.
Joy, I just wanted you to know that I shared part of your e-mail with my Sunday School class when we got to prayer requests. Everyone was amazed and praised God for your Christian maturity. I hope you got my e-mails. (The one about why men shouldn’t babysit was supposed to give you a laugh. I hope it wasn’t inappropriate.) Love you and talk to you soon.
Katrin….I didn’t get your emails:( joy@madisons.com works best. Yikes! Hope to hear from you again soon!
much love… nothing else I can say here.
What u feel is something that is real. It is not your fault. its that the baby was not ready so you should always remain steady. Think of it as a sign, or as a blessing. It is a gift your giving. Not for it living. It remains within you. when ever your felling blue. Its in your heart. It’s never apart. See all you need is to believe, because that is what it all came to be.
To my Aunt Joy
wishing u all the
best
Thanks so much Alexis! I appreciate your care and concern for us. I hope that we can spend more time together soon!
My heart goes out to you. We lost our 20 year old son almost 4 years ago and I know the pain of such a loss, although of course each is unique.
Just know that many people, those you know and those you don’t, are thinking of you and your family and sending love and prayers to all of you.
Best of luck
I am so sorry for your loss, this entry was very moving. I just wanted to give you a ((HUG))
i feelrealy sorry 4 u
that is so sad
i dont know what i do
if that happend to my sam
or i bet you are going to get lots of e mails saying the same thing well i feel so sorry 4 u , but keep you head up high and dont worry u wont 4 get your baby girl keep smiling:) the more you feel upset the worst it gets lots of luv x.x.x.x.xx.x.xx.xx.x.x.xx.x.x.xx… it happens alot, as long as your family n friend stick by u laura .b. from manchester….
GOD BLESS YOU,AND YOUR BABY GIRL.FOR SHE IS IN A BETTER PLACE THAN US.YOU HAVE WONDERFUL FAITH IN GOD.AND GOD WHO SEES AND KNOWS ALL IS WATCHING YOU.I BELIEVE THAT WHEN WE GO TO HEAVEN WE WILL HAVE ALL THE GOOD THINGS THERE, THAT WE DIDNT HAVE ON THIS EARTH.AND THERE WILL BE YOUR BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL WAITING FOR YOU.GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.I WISH YOU THE BEST!!!
thinking about this again today (due to reading someone else’s blog entry). feel free to make sure you cry about it anytime. i still can’t believe how much it’s not overwhelming, but yet, it’s still as painful to me as it is.
i sometimes can’t think of how my mother “deals” with the loss of her children (one infant, one nearly 40).
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